Fairytales are not for me
I thought they were
For a brief moment in time
When my heart was full
My eyes were sparkling
And my soul was at peace
Just then,
Reality stepped in
Sirens blaring
Red flags at every corner
In a flash it was done
Spiraling into darkness
Constant free fall
Reaching for a foothold
Spinning out of control
Numbness sets in slowly
Taking over my soul
When will I ever learn
Them Fairytales,
Nope, they are not for me
My mind struggles to comprehend
What my heart already knows
The echoes of love fade
As reality dawns firmly
Pushing back the blinders
Opening my eyes, my ears
The deafening sounds
Of despair sink in
And life starts crumbling
Free falling into the abyss
Breaking my last resolve
The message rings clear
I am not welcome here
I hear the sound of silence,
echoing through my mind.
The still small voices inside my head,
screaming louder than my thoughts.
Noise all around me,
getting louder note by note.
Piercing through like a thunder bolt,
breaking the barriers of my mind.
Fading memories
Of milestone days
Erratic emotions
Lessen their grip
Replaced by calm
A hollow place
Occupies the heart
I try to hold on
Time takes over
The mind jumbled
Obscure glimpses
Of past occurrences
Did it happen?
Was it my imagination?
Is it today?
I wonder….
A clear intoxicating liquid
A snare, A trap, A beginning
Definitions of your name
Capturing the essence of you
You intoxicated me
With your ways,
your playfulness
You drew me in
Captured my heart
In a way no one had
It was indeed a new day
Every day for you
Creating moments,
each one unique
Drawing me in just enough
To be in control
Me, your slave,
Your nurturer, playmate
Him, your confidence
Your daily kisses
She, your happy pill
And entertainment
You had us all
Growing more in love,
with you, each day
Your whole life
Filled with awe
Carefree and happy
A prince, A king
in our home, our lives
Chasing butterflies
And birds
Catching rats
And lizards
Running riot around
Our feet, our lives
Happiness comes
In small measure,
That was exactly you
We will miss you
Little one, my pal
Every moment, every day
You will always be
The king of my heart
Rest in love amongst the butterflies and birds #foreverinmyheart
When he comes for you
There is no hope
Once your number’s up
There’s no way out
All our days are numbered
We live on borrowed time
The end of our journey
Mapped in the stars
Follows us like a shadow
If he is merciful
It will be quick
A long suffering
If his humour kicks in
There’s no way out
No where to run
You breath your last
When the sun goes down
If time stood still
Will it wipe the world clean
And the whisper of silence
Pause the cacophony of life
Does energy reignite our souls
Taking us back in time
To disengage our minds
Engaging yet again but,
In another realm of being
Within the stillness our breath
Unifies with the earth’s rhythm
A sigh of relief, calm, serene
Free falling in peaceful bliss
