Torn

Pensive, this month of October

Makes me think, Makes me wonder

What is this struggle, this fight to survive?

Why do a few have it so hard,

When the rest have it so easy?

Is there a light at the end of this tunnel?

Should I stay? Should I go?

Where will this road take me, I’m still perplexed

What’s this lesson you keep teaching me?

I have had enough, I need to break free

Am I running away? Am I being fair?

Torn, I can’t shake it off

Where do I go from here?

Instictivley you

Peace. I needed that
I guess you needed it too.
Its complicated, yes.
But I'm glad its not gone.
You didnt need to do anything,
The look, said it all.
I close my eyes, I see you
I cant help myself.
Like you never left
you took over my thoughts


 

Dysfunctional Distraction

This cat and mouse game

Has gotten tiresome

Either you are in or out

There is no in between

You give a little then hold back

Is there a point to any of this?

Why make things complicated

The boundaries are very clear

There is no blurring of the lines

But yet, you retreat into your shell

Leaving me perplexed

Is this reality? Is this guilt?

When souls collide.

You smiled, I looked away 
I was in a happy place, oblivious

Then I caught your eye by accident

Felt a smile coming on, couldn't hide it

Funny how you entered my space

Almost like a long lost friend

We connected instantly 

How truly bizarre, untimed

Your easy disposition, sense of humour

Like a drug, its hopelessly addictive 

Far from the usual vagabonds

A soul with substance, life

I'm glad I met you however untimely

I feel at ease around you

A few times I have caught my breath

But its all good, different

There's distance now

A little more space to grow

This friendship will blossom

Two souls connected, in time

Moon-struck

Light falls through the open window

The moon is out in all its glory

Night becomes less scary

Shadows, they all fade away softly

I stand in awe soaking up the light

It always amazes me

I am mesmerized by its glow

Fills my soul, gives me hope in a dreary world

A reason to dream, feel free

So real, so close, yet so far away

He held me up... The unknown.

It amazes me no bounds
How help comes from the unknown
When you are pushed against the wall
Not sure which way to turn.

You'd think it was divine intervention
That made this possible
You wouldn't expect a stranger
To take your hand when in need.

Yes, I am truly amazed
Nothing is as it seems in life
Help comes from where you least expect it
A blessing in disguise. 

Emotional hangover

I need to talk you say. I must.
Its been awhile,
Is there anything left to say? 
You want to drop by talk face to face.
Is that wise? 
Its been so long but I knew in an instant.
The old familiar feelings had surfaced.
I held my breath, I couldn't shake it.
That knot at the pit of my stomach
Confusion. Fear. Regret.