Choosing Peace Over Patterns ~ A Journey Back to Myself

For as long as I can remember, I’ve found myself in precarious situationships. And no, I’m not just talking about romantic ones. The dysfunction I attracted wasn’t limited to love, it spilled into friendships, into family, into patterns that I couldn’t quite escape.

Somewhere between managing chaos and calling it ‘normal,’ I stopped to ask myself: why am I the common denominator?

Over the past 24 months, I’ve been on a journey not outward, but inward. A quiet recalibration of self. I took a step back to look not just at who I was inviting into my life, but at the energy I was sending out. Because the truth is, if all I was attracting were the broken, the emotionally unavailable, and the beautifully chaotic, then somewhere inside me… was a frequency that matched.

And that’s a hard pill to swallow.

It’s easier to say they were the problem. Much harder to ask: what’s in me that’s seeking comfort in that chaos?

What I learned is that my choices were often a mirror of my emotional state. They reflected my unresolved wounds, my default settings, and yes, my comfort zone. Even if it was uncomfortable.

I decided it was time to break the pattern.

2025 (according to my journey guides and my unapologetic star sign habits) is a year of bold shifts. And I made one: I chose me.

Now here we are in August, and I can honestly say, it’s been my best decision yet.

I’ve stepped out of what I thought was “normal.” I’ve found structure in my day. I’ve committed to my work, my workouts, and most importantly, my well-being. I’ve cherished time with my son, prioritized the people who are good for my heart health, and gently stepped back from the noise that no longer serves me.

I’ve returned to my writing. My poetry. I’ve learned to fall in love with silence.

What I’ve come to understand is that inward reflection isn’t indulgent ~ it’s vital. It’s how we realign. Not just to purpose, but to peace. Not just to dreams, but to reality, ours, not someone else’s.

We can spend a lifetime trying to conquer the world… or we can begin the much braver journey of conquering ourselves.

And while I may not be there yet, I’m getting closer. And I know I’m not alone.

So if you’re reading this and feeling a little out of sync with your world ‘pause’. Reflect. You don’t need to flip your life upside down overnight. But maybe, just maybe, it’s time to choose you too.

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