The journey through life is not an easy one, the road is paved with many bumps, thumps and pot-holes before it smoothens out for a bit. Each time the road smoothens out we have a new lease of life and toast to new beginnings. I have toasted to new beginnings many times over in my short life span and I am sure I will be toasting to many more as life progresses.
You see the thing is, each time I start a new chapter before it comes an upheaval a purging almost of the old order of things and each time the old order changes, it takes a little bit more out of me. Yes, you could put it down to experience or be content with that age old line 'such is life' but really, should this be the order of things?
I spent the last eight years of my life back in my parents home, don't get me wrong whilst I enjoyed the carefree life I spent there with my son it depressed me a great deal that I had to be confined to the four walls of a room. Having run house and had an independent lifestyle I used to find the four walls closing in on me at times and it used to drive me nuts.
I finally put my foot out the door and took up the challenge of moving out, it was not an easy decision at all. I deliberated over it for months but as I said before after a stormy upheaval I decided this just had to be done. And, so began my newest venture 'playing house'.
The day before I moved in I ran to one of the quaint little churches around the corner from my office, lit candles for my family, all my friends and especially for the journey I was about to embark upon. I think my plea for a successful new beginning was so strong that although I have moved in and more or less settled in the purging of the old order has not ended.
I am not sure if this is going to be 'the big bang' in my universe but HE seems to be more in control of my life than I am at this point. I think the best thing I can do is toast to new beginnings, sit back and enjoy the little moments of joy that keep coming into my life.
