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Thursday, June 19, 2025

Ankle Deep In Memories

Oh Ankle, my Ankle 

(not the foot, not the knee,

but somewhere gloriously in between),


From the days you’d boom out “Dodo!”

and I’d come running,

wide-eyed, small,

thinking you knew everything.


In later years, how we’d laugh,

calling each other by joint and bone 

“Hello Knees!” you’d say,

“Yes Ankle!” I’d reply,

two creaky parts of life’s great machine,

held together by stories and tea.


Endless talks of “the good ole days”

when sweets were sweeter,

music had meaning,

and life spun slower on simpler wheels.


You, with that sly grin,

dry wit sharp as ever,

teaching me that humour

is sometimes the best kind of love.


Now, as you lie in quieter hours,

know that in my heart,

your voice still calls: “Dodo!”

And I’ll always answer

your mad “knees,”

still thinking of you, always. 



Some bonds are timeless 💜

Friday, May 16, 2025

The Quiet Goodbye

They mocked

the way they walked,

spoke,

loved.


The cruelty

was constant,

in corridors,

in comments,

in quiet glances

that screamed.


But they didn’t cry out.

They swallowed the shame,

wore silence

like armour

that cracked

slowly

every day.


No warnings.

No notes.

Just a moment

too heavy to carry.


An empty chair.

A message left on read.

A light

gone out

without a sound.


Now we mourn

what we never saw,

a quiet soul

crushed

beneath the weight

of a culture

that wears cruelty

like a trend,

and calls silence

strength.

Friday, May 2, 2025

The Mirage of Safety

I will never again

Let my vulnerability

Get the better of me

What felt safe

Was an illusion

A mirage

That disappeared

Just when

It started

Feeling like it

Was safe


The warmth I trusted

Turned cold in a blink

Words once soft

Now sting with silence

Promises dissolved

Like ink in rain

Leaving behind

A blank page

Where love once lived


Now I wear my strength

Like armor

Not to hide,

But to remind myself

That even softness

Deserves a shield

And trust

Must be earned

Not assumed 

Wednesday, April 30, 2025

Caved In

I walked in

with grief still wet on my skin,

too raw to tell pain from comfort.


He didn’t love me,

not really.

He lingered long enough

to feel needed,

then disappeared

when I needed him most.


He stopped calling.

Stopped asking.

Stopped seeing me.


I told myself it was okay,

that maybe I was too much,

maybe not enough.


But the truth is

I have no answers.

No closure.

No peace.


Just silence

and the slow sinking

into a shell

that barely fits my name.


Hope?

I lost it in the waiting.

Faith?

I buried it beside my parents.

Desire?

It doesn’t visit me anymore.


I don’t know if I’m healing,

or just learning

how to live

quietly

while broken.

Tuesday, April 22, 2025

Behind the Curtain of Cool

Hiding your true self

Is quite a task, ain’t it?

A daily rehearsal

Of who they expect you to be.

Charming. Composed. Controlled.


You wear the mask like armor,

Smiling through storms,

Agreeing through grit teeth,

Nodding when your soul screams no.

Because fitting in feels safer

Than standing bare in your truth.


But masks are fragile things…

And pressure has a way

Of cracking even the best disguises.

When life corners you,

When the weight is too much,

When the lies stop fitting your skin,

That’s when it happens.


The real you slips out,

Not in grand explosions,

But in trembling moments.

A tear that escapes mid-sentence,

A truth blurted too fast to catch,

A refusal to shrink… just this once.


And maybe, just maybe,

That’s when living begins.

Not as the person you pretend to be,

But as the soul you buried to survive.

Sunday, April 20, 2025

Island Girl

The ocean knows me…

It hushes my storms.

Salt in the breeze,

Peace in my bones.

Sunrises heal,

Sunsets teach,

That even the hardest days

Will drift away.

I am an island girl,

Born of tide and light,

Held steady

By the sea.

Saturday, April 19, 2025

Easter, 2019

Time stood still,

A moment frozen in horror.

My home, engulfed in flames,

Shattered by the blast

On a day meant for peace.


Fear wrapped its arms around us

As one by one,

They went off,

Echoes of destruction

Tearing through sanctity.


What just happened?

Panic sets in.

Where next?

Are there more?

Is everyone… accounted for?


Who could unleash

Such darkness?

Death lingered in the air,

And amidst the grief,

Anger rose.

Unstoppable,

Breaking at the seams.


I’ve lost faith…

In people,

In God,

In everything I thought was sacred.


And all I can do

Is whisper

Through the silence:

Why?


In memory of a horrific day.

Friday, April 18, 2025

Vulnerability

On a Blackfoot,

Played bare,

No armour, no shield,

Just skin,

And what lies beneath it.


Open to everything,

The warmth,

The wreckage,

The way the wind kisses

And cuts,

All the same.


It invites truth

If you allow it,

But truth is a blade

In the wrong hands.


So it is twisted,

Bent,

Rewritten by others

Who never knew

How much it took

To stay soft.


It can be manipulated,

Abused,

Spat out

Like chewed beetle,

Discarded for daring

To feel

Out loud.


Still,

What power

To feel deeply,

To remain

Unhidden,

Even if the world

Only sees weakness,

While you carry

The quiet strength

Of staying open.